So, this is not typical “Finding Jaymee Content” but you will love it anyways. This post is dedicated to my teddy bear. Yes, I said it…my TEDDY BEAR. Every year I post an appreciation post to Instagram and Facebook. So many people have asked how I feel comfortable traveling solo or how I have over come certain hardships, and to be honest, a lot of it because of Jefferson Bear a.k.a Jeffrey. Let me give you the run down before showing off all of our travel pictures.
Jefferson bear was bought for me as a gift when I was in 6th grade, so almost 16 years ago. My grandmother had died in November of 2004, my parents divorced in January of 2005, and I found my grandfather, dead, on Valentine’s Day of 2005. The day I found my grandfather was the day my life started to crumble. I’d seen the EMTs drag him from the bathroom, cut a whole in his neck to see if they could make him breathe again, and then cart him away. I’d seen my mother hit her breaking point. But, I went to school anyways. I did my work, and I went to practice. I came home to a stain on the floor in front of my room, and went to sleep.
The only person that seemed to notice how bad I was hurting, was my 6th grade teacher. Myself and another girl in my class were having a rough time (both her parents had passed as well that year). So our 6th grade teacher took us to Build-A-Bear. Not only did the 3 of us getting matching bears, but myself and my classmate were able to pick out our own special bear. I chose Jefferson, not knowing how important he would be to me. I picked him out, made a wish on his heart, stuffed him, and sewed him up. Since then, this bear has seen me through self harm, attempted suicided, attempted murder, break ups, and break throughs.
Jefferson was intended to be a companion to me during a time when I felt the most alone. And he has been. He travels with me everywhere; to 30 plus countries and counting. I never feel alone or fearful when I have him with me, which could be a good or a bad thing. He is my most sacred possession, something that I am eternally grateful for and will hold near and dear to my heart forever. He is a reminder that I am not alone, because of what he represents. He is also a reminder of my 6th grade teacher noticing me, and literally saving my life. I can truly say, that without this bear and the moment he was created, I would not be here to impact the lives that I have impacted. So, without further ado, here are some travel tributes to my guy, Jefferson Bear.
I will be the woman who always has a teddy bear, period. And I will love every minute of it, period. There are certain things that you have given to you, or certain moments in your life that stick with you forever; Jefferson Bear and his creation are that everlasting moment for me.
Thanks for letting me share. I would love to know what item or memory you have that has stuck with you and impacted you for the better. Leave a comment 🙂
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