Hi readers! I am back from my most recent travels (and already planned my next trip) with wonderful news! So before I get into the details of my travels, I would like to announce that my new theme, for my travel blogs specifically, is…you guessed it….Black Girl Magic! It just, sounds do rad and makes me feel so good and powerful when Im traveling alone to know, well, I have so much power and light and I get to share that with the world and use the world to add to my experiences, and my power and light! Some of these blogs will feature my traveling stuffed teddy bear, Jefferson, and some of them, like this one, will not!
Well, as all people tend to do, I used my past experiences in Asian to pass judgement on what I thought Japan would be like, and boyyyyyyy was I pleasantly wrong. Japan was so nice and refreshing. The people are warm and welcoming (and didn’t stare too much, haha). I was greeted with bows and smiles. Not mention that the sushi and rice balls were ON POINT!
I was only in Tokyo for a short time, and spent the rest of the time with my brother up north in Misawa. This trip was very much centered around family and down time, not much touristing and gallivanting, as I tend to do. The vibe there reminded me of home. Back in Ohio, small town, fresh air vibes. Which can be a good thing and a bad thing at times, but in this case it was good. It was nice to leave the country and venture off somewhere that I haven’t been before, but not to be in a big city of be in touristy areas. Essentially, where my brother lives, is in the middle of absolutely no where. And I loved it.
I often miss the feeling of being bored and not having much to do. It allows you to read and talk and sit still. My brother kept asking me what I wanted to do, and I was just content being there. Now don’t get me wrong, after a couple days in the middle of no where, you start to miss home. But it was nice getting away. We visited shrines and Japanese castles, and the biggest Buddha I have ever seen thus far. We ate foods that smelled funny and tasted great, and food that smelled great and tasted funny. I got to see my niece and nephew. And while they assured me that I never want children, I was overjoyed to be with them. (Auntie for LYFE!) I was so happy to kind of, re get to know my brother. It had been so long since I’d last seen him, and to be honest, we haven’t spend very much adult sibling time together. I learned a lot of things about him that I hadn’t known, and I am sure he feels the same. We shared a beer together and talks about old times and new times and what we thought of our lives as they are now. It was very nice and much needed. In that time, talking to him and being on my own, I learned a lot about myself too.
In the down time – well the time where I should have been sleeping, but wasn’t because of serious jet lag- I realized a lot of things that I haven’t had time or space to think about in New York City.
- I realized that a lot of my visible happiness to the outside world…is fake. I spend a lot of time think about what to do next rather than enjoying the present. I have gone to too many places and seen too many things to get hung up on things I cannot control. Instead of enjoy that which is for me and happening to me.
- I realized that New York City is NOT where I want to spend my life. Okay its cool, and I want to make 10 years and experience living entirely on my own without roommates…but New York City, this crazy fast, overly lit, notimetostandstillcauseyourealwaysonthego city….is too much for me and what I want with my life. I’d been trying to make it work, because if I left and headed west or even midwest, I would feel like a failure, like all the work I’ve done to stay here was for nothing. Well, thats not true…and I realized that as well. I guess thats number 2.5.
- After coming to terms with my… much needed choices and developments, written about in No One Said It’s Be Easy, I realized that I don’t need anymore people in my life that are not going to help me get to where I’m going, who can’t or won’t be apart of whatever journey I am on, and whose journey I can’t or wont be apart of myself. While I am not old, I still don’t have time to waste, only to learn and grow and thats a train that has left the station and making very few worthy stops.
- Lastly, one thing I am still sitting with and deciding on, is that I need more faith. I still believe in a lot Buddhist ways: the mediating, and reaching inner peace (nirvana) and what not. But there is something about faith, community, Jesus, that I have been resisting for my own personal reasons, and something that I think needs to change. Crazy, that this specific realization came when I was standing in front of the Buddha, ready to cry because I didn’t feel as though that was something I was fully committed or could fully commit to.
All in all, I enjoyed my trip to Japan and seeing my brother and his family. I enjoy having a pleasant experience on a continent where I wasn’t sure if I’d ever go back. But more so, I enjoyed that Japan offered me an environment where I could truly think and release, with no anxiety or obligations or whatever. I’m laughing because, all my friends are going to ask me how Japan was and was it fun and what did I do. And Im going to tell them, it was fine and I got some much needed clarity, and answers to questions I didn’t have to ask.
This is my story, this is my journey.
Until next time, (when Black Girl Magic Takes….)